It’s only been a few weeks but it feels like it’s been closer to months that we haven’t talked. I want to be mad at you. I want to hate you. It’s the only way I can justify that we aren’t talking; anger and loneliness are to blame for the way I feel lately.
It really messes with you, having someone there for you from sun up to sun down every single day, to not having them anymore….at all.
Anger and sadness, there is no happiness anymore. Normally you see these kinds of masks depicted with happiness and sadness, showing the range of human emotions. I wanted to show the current range of my emotions. I feel no happiness, only anger and despondence. No matter how hard I try I can’t seem to put on that mask of happiness that I used to wear so well. I feel I may have a problem. I have already called and set up an appointment with a psychiatrist. Now I just have to wait a few weeks until then.
The first step to solving any problem is recognizing that there is one.