That thing that keeps you awake at night, eating at your heart, it’s not your fault. Forgive yourself for whatever it is you think you did wrong. There’s nothing you can do to change it. It’s happened and it’s done, and you can’t undo it. It doesn’t matter anymore. Stop worrying about it so much. You can’t change the past and no amount of worrying will ever change the decisions you made or the things that happened to you. You can’t carry that guilt with you. Blaming yourself, bearing that burden, will only make you miserable and until you let go of all of that guilt then you will never be happy. You will never get a good nights sleep without medication again. You’re strong, but you can’t bear your own guilt. No man or woman can live their lives happily and blame themselves for something in the past. Let it go. You have to forgive yourself. It’s not important anymore. You’re past it. It’s behind you.
It’s not your fault.