Sticks and stones

Sticks and stones

I’m sure everyone has heard that term “Sticks and stone may break my bones, but words may never hurt me”. You know what that was? That was a lie. Stick and stones will leave visible cuts, scratches, bruises, broken bones, scars, but all of that will heal or go away with time. Words however, will leave invisible scars that will bury themselves deep in your brain and will torment you for as long as they remain. They could only be there a few days, weeks, months, hell..they could stick with you for the rest of your life. I’m 20 years old and I can still remember being called names when I was 9.

People can see the marks left behind from physical pain, not mental pain. You can carry those things with you in your head forever and not a single person would ever know unless you told them. Physical and mental pain are two completely different things, and children are some of the most gullible people on Earth and will let words hurt them so much if they let it. That is when a lot of peoples problems start, during childhood, with mean names and bad words. Crying to your parents that someone in class called you a name or laughed at you for having big teeth, or big ears, or glasses.

I understand that that saying is supposed to help children learn to not listen to what people have to say, but children don’t understand that. When I was told that I had no idea what it meant. I didn’t know that it was a tiny door that lead to a huge world of depression. I had no idea the underlying meaning behind that saying. No child can see how deep it really is. They think it’s just a neato rhyme to say when people are saying mean things to them.

Once you have those things in your mind, it’s very hard to get them out. Even when you think they are gone they can come right back when you just want the world to leave you alone. Sticks and stones leave marks that go away, words stay with you forever.

Stagnancy

Stagnancy

Have you ever been in that stationary position in your life where the days don’t matter? You don’t know what date it is unless you look at your phone. You sleep most of the day away and your family doesn’t even say anything about it anymore because it’s just become normal for them to never see you. They see you two or three times a day, for an hour a day, tops. Nothing is entertaining anymore, the games you played, the shows you watched, the movies that are available, music. The only thing that keeps the boredom away is talking to someone. You desperately try to talk to people, but you barely have anyone. Two, maybe three people are there to talk to you. You barely sleep at night because you have nowhere to go, nothing important to do. Ever.

I’m not the only one, am I?

It’s very lonely. Yeah, people talk to me, but it’s deeper than that. I’m tired of being alone.