I know we haven’t seen each other, or even talked in a long time…but I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately, and I want you to know that I miss you. Not like “I regret what happened” or even “I want to see you again”. Just..”I miss you.” Full stop.
It’s strange to think that someone I used to know so well is now a total stranger…that I sometimes go entire days without thinking of you even a little bit. Most of the time, I let myself forget, because I know it’s easier. But then I find something…an old letter, an old gift, a drawing on the front page of that sketchbook you gave me…and the full weight of what’s been lost comes crashing down on me, but it isn’t regret. We had reasons for ending it, and they’re as valid as ever, but back at the start we didn’t need reasons for anything. It all just happened. We didn’t have common interests, or similar goals. We didn’t even get along that well. But we didn’t need a reason to fall in love. We just did. The reasons came at the end, and everything that’s happened since has been all about reasons, and that’s good. It means one day I might find someone I won’t have to say goodbye to.
I guess what I’m saying is, I hope things are good with you. I hope everything is great. I hope you found a love that’s all the things ours couldn’t be, and I hope i find that too.
But a small part of me hopes that you still remember what it was like before all the reasons…
…and that you miss me too.